
The autonomy capsule started as my semester project for the group exhibition
"Spaces after frantic movement", in May 2010. At the time I was into spaceships, steampunk aesthetics, existential ideas (more in the sense of the ideas about existence than in the sense of the philosophical movement) and the concept of autonomy. I was influenced by
"TAZ", by Hakim Bay and "Why hasn't everything already disappeared" by Jean Baudrillard. The project later evolved into the structure exhibited during Festspillene i Harstad in June the same year
(see The Autonomy Capsule 2).
These pictures are from its first incarnation, when it was kind of clean looking, with only five texts within and one introductory text outside. In this version the space within was intended to be kind of objective and meditative, while the text on the board outside was more personal and frantic.
The idea was to present a fictive character who built the capsule in an attempt to create a space outside of society in which to exist without association. The character goes through an existential crisis, and becomes obsessed with the search for her existence outside the perception of others. Eventually she arrives at the conclusion that it is impossible to perceive yourself without including outside experience/perception.
The prologue text was:
When she was observed she no longer existed. Her viewer designed an image for her, compiled a self from fragments, actions, moments they had seen or taken part in, for her to reside within. She became associations, she became habits, she became preconceptions, she became who she was thought to be.
The observers granted her names to connect her with already accumulated knowledge. She was “feminist”, “white”, “female” and she grew into her names. Her beautiful multiverse faltered. The unending, boundless realm of her mind shrunk yearly as the preconceptions spread, like a black cloud over her imagination, leaving her a grey and empty receptacle for their expectations. She started painting her toenails red, remains silent about it, with her shoes on, and began to wonder if her nails then truly were red when no one was aware of it. When she was alone she would take her shoes off to study the varnish and pick at it, leaving flecks of red on the floor. If she forgot about it, what then? Perhaps the varnish was more real than she was, being secret and unnamed.
She tries to create an image with no subtext, and fails, finding subtext even in the words “no subtext”. She abandons the project.
“To analyze is to dissolve.” She states, an obsessive fear of the associations her words and actions cause ensues.
“By describing the subconscious we bring it to consciousness and thus it ceases to be.” She says.
A lover names her “Girlfriend”. Capital G. Her lover knows her best, knows the details of her anatomy, her likes and dislikes, how she is difficult to wake in the morning. He destroys her with his definition of her being, he grows blind.
Realizing that there is no true or false, society having crowned the individual sovereign, she floats free within her own existence, realizing that every right is wrong, every truth a lie and every choice, by and large, irrelevant.
A decision is made. In order to preserve the existence of her self she will go where she cannot be observed.
When the first version was shown it was in a dark and continuously smoke-filled room. The structure was the only source of light, aside from a small lamp illuminating the sign outside. The viewers were asked to enter the structure one at a time and to close the door behind them. Once inside the windows became mirrors due to the difference in light, and you were effectively isolated while still visible to those outside. Inside there were five texts centered around a pillow for the viewer to sit on.
The texts inside were:
1.
Definition ends existence.
By defining a thing we come to see the definition of that thing and not the thing itself.
In naming the subconscious we bring it to consciousness, and thus it ceases to be.
We see the subtext before the surface
We see the signifier and not the signified.
2.
This is my search:
Within the complicated network
of habits, desires, ideals, misconceptions, social scars, pain, hunger, complexes, fears, pretenses, love affairs, hatreds and denials,
there is a core self.
A genetic potential or a soul. That thing which lies still and centered, and which we identify as our “self”
from the moment of self-recognition until our death. Some aspect that can only be observed in stillness, in silence and in solitude, remains within, unobserved. It would disappear through its own description.
3.
What is necessary in order to achieve an existence, free of preconceptions?
I construct a space in which to isolate myself entirely. I remove those layers of being that no longer seem true or relevant.
Within this space I am
Within yours I am another,
The name you utter is not mine
The image it evokes is not me.
4.
My mind is formed within the structure of language.
I cannot exist within it, I cannot express without it.
I become
signifier signified
void
5.
Definition is existence.
If a thing does not exist in any mind then it does not exist at all,
existence being a matter of the human mind, reality being what we define it to be,
and perception being the only known truth.
*Some of the photos above are taken by the lovely Susanne Sakariassen. Tusen takk. :)